In my silence

November 5, 2016

In my silence, hear me speak
You think I'm strong but I'm really weak
Words need not be spoken
If you only listen.

Do you hear me, are you listening?
Can you hear my heart is beating?
Beating, not because of you
I am alive, not only you.

When it's time for me to talk
That's the time you decide to walk
Walk away, far away
When I had hoped you'd stay.

The world never revolved around me
Because that is my destiny
Is it selfish to ask I wish it did at times
So I can sense the beauty behind these rhymes.

Do you hear me shouting now?
Can you hear me somehow?
Now, somehow?
How? Now.

Birthday Thanks

Thank you for all the birthday wishes
From family, friends, and acquaintances
But I have to be totally honest
This birthday was not my happiest
Still I am thankful for so many greetings
And to those who shared their blessings
Maybe next year it will be better
Maybe next time we'll celebrate together
You all make my heart full
And made my life more meaningful
I want to say "Thank you!"
And to all, "I love you!"
😘❤❤❤

When wishes don't come true

You know that feeling when you wish upon a star
And hope for a miracle to happen where you are
But you know it is impossible and prevent it from happening
Because you don't want to hold on to mere daydreaming

You don't know when it happened that you stopped believing
Maybe coz all this time you've only been imagining
Now that reality has slapped you to your senses
That everything was all hopes and pretenses

Why do you dread that day coming your way?
Why do you have to go when you really want to stay?
Why do you want to deal with it on your own?
When you really don't want to be alone.

Tula nga ba

October 20, 2017

Ako'y madrama
Pag may .....
Ika'y naaalala
Lalo't di nagkita

Bakit kaya
Ako'y nagtataka
Dahil lang ba
Ako'y nangungulila

Ako'y umasa
Ika'y makita
Walang pag-asa
Lalo't aalis ka

Tagal pa ata
Bago makita
Matitiis pa ba
Baka hindi na

Dama ko pa
Iyong pagkalinga
Kahit nga
Malayo ka

Paano pa
Pag masilayan ka
Anong saya
Ang madarama

Hiling ko sana
Mag-iingat ka
Saan man magpunta
Ligtas sa sakuna

Tiis-tiis pa
Walang magawa
Maghihintay talaga
Kahit nagdurusa na

Muli ring magkita
Puso'y sasaya
Tama na drama
Patula-tula ka pa

Tapusin ko na
Itong tula
Tula nga ba
Siguro nga

Wonder Woman

September 3, 2017 3:13

I am wonder woman.
I often wonder why it happened or why it is happening.
I often wonder how it happened, how it is happening or how it can happen.
I often wonder if it happened, if it is happening or if it can happen.
I often wonder when it happened or when it will happen.
I often wonder where it happened or where it will happen.
I often wonder who it was, is or will be.
I often wonder what happened, what is happening or what will happen.
I am wonderful.
I wonder.

Time Freeze

Sometimes I wish I could freeze moments in time
When I see the special in the seemingly ordinary
Moments that can create melody and rhyme
These amazing times I hope would last for eternity

I wish moments with you could extend until forever
Because you bring me so much joy with your presence
These memories of us spending time together
I shall etch in my heart and prevent evanescence

I don't want to be anywhere but here beside you
If only I could stay in this place until who knows when
Often I look at you and I still can't believe it's true
That I am looking at the face of an angel from heaven

Ang Paghihintay

August 9, 2017 21:00 FB
Ang paghihintay

Minsan sa ating buhay
Tayo'y naghihintay
Tila sa buhay ko
Napakadalas nito

Sa bawat oras na lumipas
Pag-asa'y kumukupas
Kagandaha'y nahuhulas
Sinuswerte, minamalas

Ngunit walang magawa
Kundi mangarap at umasa
Na darating ang hinihintay
Kahit sa dulo pa ng buhay

Ngunit paano kung ang tunay
Ikaw pala ang hinihintay
Buong buhay nag-abang
Yun pala'y ikaw ang nagkulang

Kay tagal minimithi
Nandyan lang pala sa tabi
Hinihintay lang na mamulat
Na ika'y hindi salat

Nainggit sa iba
Dahil tinignan ang wala
Samantalang higit pa
Ang iyong tinatamasa

Akala'y naghihintay ka
Nagpapasalamat pala
Sa lahat ng biyaya
Kaloob ng Diyos na dakila

Haciendera

Mahirap maging haciendera
Lalo kung wala kang tauhan
Ikaw lang nagdamo mag-isa
Habang naliligo sa putik at ulan

May kapitbahay na lumapit
Na may dalang itak
Sa puso ko'y napakapit
Wag naman akong masaksak

Sabay initak ang sanga
Ng mga halaman at puno
Nang matapos ako'y nakahinga
Diyos ko po salamat po!

What keeps me up at night

May 24, 2017 on FB:

What's on my mind
That keeps me up at night
I'd rather leave behind
So I can now sleep tight

I'd like to sleep now please
And rest my weary eyes
Let me sleep in peace
Before the sun will rise

Thank You God for this day
Though nothing special happened
I'll be grateful as I lay
And let all worries end.

Invisible

I am used to being invisible in people's eyes
They come into my life and then they leave me suddenly
Or time may pass and then they break their ties
They go through their lives and I am still where they left me.

Time and time again I listen to their stories
But none are interested in the stories I tell
One by one they share with me their memories
And then when they're done, they bid me farewell.

I have been told that I welcome people like a doormat
Sometimes I even feel like a diaper absorbing shit
When done with me, I am left just like that
Thrown into a seemingly bottomless pit.

Those moments I just do my best to feel numb
I clean myself up after, ready to welcome another one
I may say nothing and do nothing, I often feel dumb
Why do I keep offering my heart to everyone?

I am invisible, don't mind me you all
But when you call my name I will surely be there
Sometimes I also wish I had someone to call
But most are busy doing something elsewhere.

Then you came along while I was invisible
You noticed me in the dark and you called me to the light
I couldn't stand the brightness and I felt so vulnerable
But you wanted me there within your sight.

You believe in me like no one ever did
You listen to me and make me feel complete
You are there for me, knowing exactly what I need
When I was ready to give up, you told me not to quit.

My mind has painful thoughts and terrible imagination
But simply seeing you, all those immediately melt away
And I am filled with happiness and exhilaration
For this reason, I wish that I could see you everyday

Forever indebted yet I could give nothing
And because I did nothing, I unintentionally hurt you
You drifted a little, I hated myself as you kept hurting
If only I could turn back time, I would if I have to.

I was overcome with a painful memory of the past
Then you also had that experience so horrible
It happened the same time you remember last
I could not move so I chose to become invisible.

I wanted to scream, I wanted to cry, I felt like fainting
But I kept to myself, unaware of the consequences
My body was numb but I could hear what was happening
And it was too late when I finally came to my senses.

I am so used to being invisible until you came
Sorry if you felt I was invisible when you needed me
But I am always here for you, I will stay the same
Your loving friend who cares for you, for eternity.

Your smile and laughter

Para sayo ito Bess...

To see you smile makes me smile
To hear you laugh is melody to my ears
To get a glimpse of you even for a while
Can break through all my aches and tears

Keep smiling! 😊

Revised poem:

Thank you

I am truly grateful to have known you
Every day you are my inspiration
Push myself each and every day anew
You serve as my daily motivation

I feel the passion burning in your heart
You inspire me with your dedication
Though our distance may be so far apart
I am moved by your determination

I wish I could be with you frequently
But I can only come see you at times
Yet to be with you feels so heavenly
That I can compose these poetic rhymes

To see you smile can also make me smile
To hear you laugh is music to my ears
To glimpse at you even for just a while
Can overcome all of my aches and tears

I will always be here to closely watch
And cheer your successes, through peace or strife
All I can say is thank you very much
Thank you for making me part of your life.

Sometimes I weep

May 15, 2017 posted on FB

When everyone's asleep
Sometimes I weep
Happy tears, sad tears
Excitement or fears

Most often though
I really don't know
What I feel inside
My emotions that hide

One can be lonely
In a room full of plenty
One can be happy
With oneself as company

Every heartbeat I feel
Every emotion surreal
One feeling after another
Seem to go on forever

Who? What? When? Where?
How? Why? Either? Neither?
Questions without answers
My mind asks these matters

Exhausting myself until dreamy
And finally feeling weary
I do my very best
To lie down and rest

Tomorrow's another day...

For Nana

Published on May 11, 2014 FB

Bagamat wala ka na
Tila ika’y buhay pa
Sa aking bawat paghinga
Kilos at gawing namana

Kay bilis hiram na sandaling
Biyaya na maituturing
Ang buhay mong mula sa Maykapal
Aking inang pinakamamahal

Alam kong di na mauulit
Makapiling ka kahit saglit
Maliban kung tayo’y magkita
Diyan sa langit kung nasaan ka

Di ako nagmamadali
Na magkita tayong muli
Ngunit nais kong ialay sa’yo
Munting tulang galing sa puso ko

Wala ka man sa tabi ko
Utang sa’yo ang buhay ko
Lubos na ipinagmamalaki kita
Maligayang araw ng mga ina, Nana!!!

When I die

Posted on Facebook on May 3, 2013:

When I die, please do not cry.
For I have lived, and am now relieved.
Do not weep, I'm not asleep.
Go on living, appreciating.
Smile and live, dream and believe.

Thinking of you

I can't stop thinking about you
I hope the day was kind to you
Are you happier than yesterday
Did you eat well enough today
Did you get to have enough sleep
Was there something that made you weep
I hope you remember to smile
Because it is so worth your while
I'm happy only when you are too
Take care always coz I love you

The Journey of a Dreaming Star

They say to grant the wishes of your heart

You have to wish upon a star

Determined you may be from the start

You still have to journey so very far

The stars above seem so far to reach

Especially to someone feeling so small

The difficulties you face aim to teach

That you have to learn to stand tall

The journey is a long and winding road

It is not so easy to walk upright

As you have to carry a heavy load

And everyday you have to fight

Once you thought the road will end

A longer path you have to take

Sometimes you even have to bend

Endless choices you have to make

But then you stop to smell the roses

And look at the bright sky above

You wonder why you took those choices

And why you ran away from love

The dreams you wanted to achieve

You have now forgotten in the past

You decide that you just want to give

And share your life until the very last

Looking up at the highest star

You realize that you are not that small

That you have become the brightest star

It was not the destination but the journey after all

In God's perfect timing

You almost stopped dreaming
When you kept on failing
You also kept doubting
But still kept on hoping
Never stopped believing
The dreams you were wishing
Can really take on wing
In God's perfect timing

Rise in Love

Posted on January 17, 2017

When we fall in love,
Why do we have to fall?
Shouldn't it be to rise in love,
So it wouldn't hurt at all?

KNPM

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