What keeps me up at night

May 24, 2017 on FB:

What's on my mind
That keeps me up at night
I'd rather leave behind
So I can now sleep tight

I'd like to sleep now please
And rest my weary eyes
Let me sleep in peace
Before the sun will rise

Thank You God for this day
Though nothing special happened
I'll be grateful as I lay
And let all worries end.

Invisible

I am used to being invisible in people's eyes
They come into my life and then they leave me suddenly
Or time may pass and then they break their ties
They go through their lives and I am still where they left me.

Time and time again I listen to their stories
But none are interested in the stories I tell
One by one they share with me their memories
And then when they're done, they bid me farewell.

I have been told that I welcome people like a doormat
Sometimes I even feel like a diaper absorbing shit
When done with me, I am left just like that
Thrown into a seemingly bottomless pit.

Those moments I just do my best to feel numb
I clean myself up after, ready to welcome another one
I may say nothing and do nothing, I often feel dumb
Why do I keep offering my heart to everyone?

I am invisible, don't mind me you all
But when you call my name I will surely be there
Sometimes I also wish I had someone to call
But most are busy doing something elsewhere.

Then you came along while I was invisible
You noticed me in the dark and you called me to the light
I couldn't stand the brightness and I felt so vulnerable
But you wanted me there within your sight.

You believe in me like no one ever did
You listen to me and make me feel complete
You are there for me, knowing exactly what I need
When I was ready to give up, you told me not to quit.

My mind has painful thoughts and terrible imagination
But simply seeing you, all those immediately melt away
And I am filled with happiness and exhilaration
For this reason, I wish that I could see you everyday

Forever indebted yet I could give nothing
And because I did nothing, I unintentionally hurt you
You drifted a little, I hated myself as you kept hurting
If only I could turn back time, I would if I have to.

I was overcome with a painful memory of the past
Then you also had that experience so horrible
It happened the same time you remember last
I could not move so I chose to become invisible.

I wanted to scream, I wanted to cry, I felt like fainting
But I kept to myself, unaware of the consequences
My body was numb but I could hear what was happening
And it was too late when I finally came to my senses.

I am so used to being invisible until you came
Sorry if you felt I was invisible when you needed me
But I am always here for you, I will stay the same
Your loving friend who cares for you, for eternity.

Your smile and laughter

Para sayo ito Bess...

To see you smile makes me smile
To hear you laugh is melody to my ears
To get a glimpse of you even for a while
Can break through all my aches and tears

Keep smiling! 😊

Revised poem:

Thank you

I am truly grateful to have known you
Every day you are my inspiration
Push myself each and every day anew
You serve as my daily motivation

I feel the passion burning in your heart
You inspire me with your dedication
Though our distance may be so far apart
I am moved by your determination

I wish I could be with you frequently
But I can only come see you at times
Yet to be with you feels so heavenly
That I can compose these poetic rhymes

To see you smile can also make me smile
To hear you laugh is music to my ears
To glimpse at you even for just a while
Can overcome all of my aches and tears

I will always be here to closely watch
And cheer your successes, through peace or strife
All I can say is thank you very much
Thank you for making me part of your life.

Sometimes I weep

May 15, 2017 posted on FB

When everyone's asleep
Sometimes I weep
Happy tears, sad tears
Excitement or fears

Most often though
I really don't know
What I feel inside
My emotions that hide

One can be lonely
In a room full of plenty
One can be happy
With oneself as company

Every heartbeat I feel
Every emotion surreal
One feeling after another
Seem to go on forever

Who? What? When? Where?
How? Why? Either? Neither?
Questions without answers
My mind asks these matters

Exhausting myself until dreamy
And finally feeling weary
I do my very best
To lie down and rest

Tomorrow's another day...

For Nana

Published on May 11, 2014 FB

Bagamat wala ka na
Tila ika’y buhay pa
Sa aking bawat paghinga
Kilos at gawing namana

Kay bilis hiram na sandaling
Biyaya na maituturing
Ang buhay mong mula sa Maykapal
Aking inang pinakamamahal

Alam kong di na mauulit
Makapiling ka kahit saglit
Maliban kung tayo’y magkita
Diyan sa langit kung nasaan ka

Di ako nagmamadali
Na magkita tayong muli
Ngunit nais kong ialay sa’yo
Munting tulang galing sa puso ko

Wala ka man sa tabi ko
Utang sa’yo ang buhay ko
Lubos na ipinagmamalaki kita
Maligayang araw ng mga ina, Nana!!!

When I die

Posted on Facebook on May 3, 2013:

When I die, please do not cry.
For I have lived, and am now relieved.
Do not weep, I'm not asleep.
Go on living, appreciating.
Smile and live, dream and believe.