Why Can’t I Love Myself Enough?

Why can’t I love myself enough?

Why does it always seem so tough?

Everyday, I feel that I have

To prove I am worthy of love.

I love others more than myself

I hide my feelings up the shelf

But when alone I feel regret

Always myself, I would forget.

All things happen for a reason

I take the blame every season

Wherever it takes, I would go

To fix the things I didn’t know.

Sometimes I feel so exhausted

I sleep yet never feel rested

But because it is a new day

I put on a smile anyway.

Smiling makes me feel I’m pretty

Though in my heart I feel ugly

No matter how I try to hide

I always see my ugly side.

In my mind, I’m my worst critic

Overthinking until I’m sick

Please be a little bit kinder

I wish I could love myself better.

Save and you'll be saved

It brings me great joy to be able to help someone even though I thought I needed help myself.  

When you feel lacking, make efforts to give.

When you feel unloved, give love.

When you feel neglected, notice someone.

When you feel sad, make someone happy.

When you feel like a failure, help others succeed.

When you feel poor, give someone even a small amount.

Then you'll realize that the lack was only you lacking to reach out.

And before you realize it, you will not anymore ask for blessings but you will be asking how to be a blessing to others.

Ask not what others can do for you but what you can do for others.

Give and you will be given.

Save and you'll be saved.

In my silence

November 5, 2016

In my silence, hear me speak
You think I'm strong but I'm really weak
Words need not be spoken
If you only listen.

Do you hear me, are you listening?
Can you hear my heart is beating?
Beating, not because of you
I am alive, not only you.

When it's time for me to talk
That's the time you decide to walk
Walk away, far away
When I had hoped you'd stay.

The world never revolved around me
Because that is my destiny
Is it selfish to ask I wish it did at times
So I can sense the beauty behind these rhymes.

Do you hear me shouting now?
Can you hear me somehow?
Now, somehow?
How? Now.

Birthday Thanks

Thank you for all the birthday wishes
From family, friends, and acquaintances
But I have to be totally honest
This birthday was not my happiest
Still I am thankful for so many greetings
And to those who shared their blessings
Maybe next year it will be better
Maybe next time we'll celebrate together
You all make my heart full
And made my life more meaningful
I want to say "Thank you!"
And to all, "I love you!"
😘❤❤❤

When wishes don't come true

You know that feeling when you wish upon a star
And hope for a miracle to happen where you are
But you know it is impossible and prevent it from happening
Because you don't want to hold on to mere daydreaming

You don't know when it happened that you stopped believing
Maybe coz all this time you've only been imagining
Now that reality has slapped you to your senses
That everything was all hopes and pretenses

Why do you dread that day coming your way?
Why do you have to go when you really want to stay?
Why do you want to deal with it on your own?
When you really don't want to be alone.

Tula nga ba

October 20, 2017

Ako'y madrama
Pag may .....
Ika'y naaalala
Lalo't di nagkita

Bakit kaya
Ako'y nagtataka
Dahil lang ba
Ako'y nangungulila

Ako'y umasa
Ika'y makita
Walang pag-asa
Lalo't aalis ka

Tagal pa ata
Bago makita
Matitiis pa ba
Baka hindi na

Dama ko pa
Iyong pagkalinga
Kahit nga
Malayo ka

Paano pa
Pag masilayan ka
Anong saya
Ang madarama

Hiling ko sana
Mag-iingat ka
Saan man magpunta
Ligtas sa sakuna

Tiis-tiis pa
Walang magawa
Maghihintay talaga
Kahit nagdurusa na

Muli ring magkita
Puso'y sasaya
Tama na drama
Patula-tula ka pa

Tapusin ko na
Itong tula
Tula nga ba
Siguro nga

Wonder Woman

September 3, 2017 3:13

I am wonder woman.
I often wonder why it happened or why it is happening.
I often wonder how it happened, how it is happening or how it can happen.
I often wonder if it happened, if it is happening or if it can happen.
I often wonder when it happened or when it will happen.
I often wonder where it happened or where it will happen.
I often wonder who it was, is or will be.
I often wonder what happened, what is happening or what will happen.
I am wonderful.
I wonder.